it was a saturday, i think, when Yee Leng met us and we had steamboat together. She asked me, "Lee, are you really moving in to my house? When are you moving in?" Since then, it's been bothering me.
This thing about moving out and growing up, it's disturbing. Ok, let's start with the moving out part. If I move out, our home will get more quiet which is sad. If i move out, my relationship with my family will not be as good which is what I'm concern about. I'm scared that I'll forget them like what I saw on tv, that 1 day I'll rather sent them to old folk's home than letting them them stay at my house.
But when I stay at home, I got nothing to do except when I'm studying. Everyday is a routine. Holiday no more feels like one because we all grow out of school. My parent had no longer need to fetch us up and down or take care of us.
It's a sad thing that the world works like this. Everything has to end somehow. We grow old and every1 leaves the family. Haiz.. I'm not talking about death though. We grow up, have to leave to work, to study, to marry. Even for friends, we no longer study or live together and see each other everyday. These toughs are sucking up my courage to move out, one day la, not now. I'm afraid that I'm going to live in my memories because now, I'm holding back in getting close to friends in kbu.
However, I tell myself, I won't forget if I don't want to. I will not forget my parent or my sisters. I will not forget my friends if I don't want to. If I move away from them, I can meet them whenever I want because they won't forget me either. Smiles~ signing off.
