This thing about moving out and growing up, it's disturbing. Ok, let's start with the moving out part. If I move out, our home will get more quiet which is sad. If i move out, my relationship with my family will not be as good which is what I'm concern about. I'm scared that I'll forget them like what I saw on tv, that 1 day I'll rather sent them to old folk's home than letting them them stay at my house.
But when I stay at home, I got nothing to do except when I'm studying. Everyday is a routine. Holiday no more feels like one because we all grow out of school. My parent had no longer need to fetch us up and down or take care of us.
It's a sad thing that the world works like this. Everything has to end somehow. We grow old and every1 leaves the family. Haiz.. I'm not talking about death though. We grow up, have to leave to work, to study, to marry. Even for friends, we no longer study or live together and see each other everyday. These toughs are sucking up my courage to move out, one day la, not now. I'm afraid that I'm going to live in my memories because now, I'm holding back in getting close to friends in kbu.
However, I tell myself, I won't forget if I don't want to. I will not forget my parent or my sisters. I will not forget my friends if I don't want to. If I move away from them, I can meet them whenever I want because they won't forget me either. Smiles~ signing off.
1 comment:
Mei mei Lee, it's normal to feel this way. Moving away from home is a big step in life. It's like an official step that says we've grown up now. But for me, moving out for about 2 years now, I think my relationship with u all has only gone better, especially with Pa. I appreciate my time at home now more than ever.
Don't worry. U're not the type who would forget about ur family becos u'd be eaten up by ur own guilt, just becos u're a good natured kid. And even if one day u wan to send Pa n Mommy to old folk's home i wont let u. Haha..
Don't hold back. Don't be afraid. We only get to live once, so make full use of it. And don't be scared about moving out. U might feel homesick for a while, but there's an adventure waiting for u, I promise. Muaks mei mei lee =D
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