in the middle of a junction now

lately, i've been busy and stess-out trying to search for any possible scholarships that i may apply. I mentioned in facebook that i was targeting for oversea scholarship to get a 'more valuable' cert of degree. Turns out, most of them are only eligible for STPM (or any kelayakan that's equivalent) holders only. It's a difficult junction of my life.

Now, i have 2 options, study locally with my spm and get some discounts in tuition fees; take stpm so that i'm more eligible to apply oversea scholarships. And I chose...... to wait for spm results and then search for any possible scholarship. Browsing for scholarship is such a stressful work, if only someone can do it for me.^^

There's another dilemma now, my parents are worried about my choice of course to study, that is graphic design. They say the possible jobs are too narrow, unless you're in an established company like Disney or Pixar, the things you do are just that.

To find some motivation, i'm now reading the 7 Habits of Highly Effective Teens by Sean Covey, hoping to find some direction in this challenging time. I'm sure of what I want, it's just that I'm quite confuse of which way to go from this point.

I really hope to get more than just a cert when i finish studying tertiary education. One day when I'm looking for a job, my resume and qualification will be more outstanding than the others.

Fortune Teller

almost every time we're back in Taiping, my mum will pay a visit to the 'fortune teller's house. As far as i know, everyone has some dept or halangan in their life. In order to solve that, there're rituals to be done. Think that's why my mum keep going there to do these stuff. This year, she went to ask about my 'life'.

When she came back, she gave me a piece of paper and explain what she was told.

Mum: you're born at the top part of a tree (leaves), that symbolizes you are a indecisive person. You're born under the claws of a dragon, at the tail of a tiger. You're suitable for travels, do not have the luck to study. You have the luck of fortune in a durian runtuh way. (偏财）You're quiet but fierce. During your past life, you were a member of the Chinese royal family. You helped people in the Huang Ho, brought a lot of alcohol, clothes and money to this life. You're able to keep your money= does not depend on your husband. Between graphic designer and lawyer, graphic designer suits you more. The reason why you're not suitable to become a lawyer is because you're not teguh enough to tegakkan keadilan. You're not able to fight for your clent when you know that your client is the bad guy, but you can study law in other field like as a lecturer or something.

first myth: I cant study

2nd myth: I'm suitable for travelling.. (I can easily get motion sickness 1 leh)

I had a great time

it's chinese new year 2010. Me and my family went back to our kampung-- Taiping, Perak.

At first, I was quite frus' upon getting the news from mami that we ARE going back. Then I start showing 'black face'. Everyone keep asking me what's wrong but I refuse to tell them the truth cause that will ruin the mood. Keep having 'pms' these few days but I don't take it out on people.. so, I drank water to distract myself (also to 'kut' all my words of anger into my stomach), and finally I spoke.. "so full".^^

I'm glad that this time we, cousins, get to play judi and hang out together, it gives me a feeling like we're siblings.. Everywhere is pack during this festive seasons, the high ways, malls, our dining table (pack with more than 10 dishes), the living room of our gathering place (ah po's house), nak cari tempat duduk pun susah.. It was full house when the movie Ip Man was showing on channel 311 that night, me and YeeLeng terpaksalah masuk bilik tengok 'tv with snow'.

This is the season I love the most, cny tv shows, movies, junk food, cleaning, all the adat resam.. and the best of all, relatives, family coming together to have a great time!!

boring topic.. no need to read

since the day I'd set the poll for people to vote, I've been eager to know the responds.... online everyday to check the poll. Nasib baik on the last few days there's something to distract me- tuition.

After the trip to Taylor's, me and my family got back by 5pm. By 6pm, me and Pa went out to 'long' some templates. I'm giving tuition to the neighborhood's kids to earn some money, while waiting for SPM result.

We jalan kaki to every street in our taman, damp tiring oh.. Once in a while when we approach some houses with dogs in it, we tend to got bark at... kesianlah aku, can't they stop barking? But it's ok leh, I know they were just trying to protect their tuan punya rumah...

Anyway, the hard part's done. Now, we just have to wait for people to call and register.

Survey

Another poll, see left.

Maybe it doesn't look that nice in this scan

I haven't post this on my fb cos this one's for my friend, it's a gift. It's suppose to be a fairy, try to make a dress out of the little butterflies. Turns out, it looks like....... the fact it's a fairy, the butterfly comes near her and covers her body.

Bought the 'butterfly cutting machine' specially to do this

I like it, but my sis (Teng) don't

Before I give it to my friend, please help me out and do the poll beside^^ thanks